~I know it’s bad to fantasize
About robbers and bad guys
But if he were there to save the day
I think I’d let that man marry me~
This song is rubbing off on me so badly. How many days has it been 4? Yea four. I mean much better, I listened to ‘Until I Found You’ on a loop for ten days straight. So this is much better. Oh, I love these lines let me increase the volume of my headphones.
~I’m a feminist, obviously
But I wouldn’t really mind him saving me~
“What?” I say rudely as I look at the person who was rude enough to disturb me in the first place. First, I’m not in the middle of the road to cause any disturbance for the vehicles. Two, I’m wearing headphones, like that is the legit sign that the whole world knows ‘This person doesn’t want to talk’. Three, look at my face, does it seem approachable? Seriously??
“I said, Hi”, he says. With his dimpled smile.
“Okay..Hi? Is that why you called me?” If he says yes, I wouldn’t mind smashing his face and throwing him in the lake beside our university.
“Yea but no. I wanted to talk to you.”
“Okay, talk then.”
“Do you wanna sit somewhere? Have a drink and chat for a while?” he says smiling and smirking at the same time? Umm… is he trying to be Flynn Rider or what?
“I hate drinks, I have some work. Bye.” I say and walk away. What does he think of himself? Why would I want to chat with him? We are strangers and we will be.
“Hey.. so what’s the plan, ignore me and avoid me for the rest of your life?” he says jogging up to me, catching my stride.
“Um…what?”
“That’s what you are doing, aren’t you? I remember you from the Music Club auditions and I know you do too.”
“Well, I’m not in the Music club, right? So I don’t need to pay respect to you or anything. I can ignore you.”
“Woah, woah, do I smell a sour loser here? I’m still your senior you know? So is this because we did not take you in?”
“I don't care. As much you want me to consider you as my senior, you behave quite the opposite way.”
( I don’t care if you are a senior or not. If you don’t shut your trap right now. I might even hit you. That’s the inner meaning.)
“Cool, cool. I will not talk about that.” He stopped talking and I heaved in a breath. We walk in silence and it is kinda nice. I popped in my earphones and continued listening to the music. My thoughts went back to the day of the auditions.
I was running late to the auditions as I was busy with my class. It was a pretty hectic day. I reached the venue and it was my turn, I was ten minutes late to the appointed time and I was gasping for air climbing all those stairs. I saw him. The single dimpled guy with his Flynn rider’s bright smile. I saw him talking to someone and they came up to me. He smiled at me and told me I could take a few minutes to rest and give my auditions. It meant a lot. That audition means a lot. Music means a lot to me. To say music is my life is an understatement and that made me hella nervous. Because I can’t mess this up. I want to be around people who love music, I want to experience that life. It was my turn to sing and I was nervous. My voice started shaking as soon as I started singing. I messed it up. I almost accepted my defeat and I was about to come down but then he started tapping his feet. The same dimpled guy started tapping his feet adorably swinging his head from one side to the other, giving me a rhythm, and slowly everyone supported me. I gained some confidence and I did okay. After that, I sang some songs which I was good at. Everything was going well or that’s what I thought. But nope, I was rejected.
Someone poked my arm bringing me out of my thoughts. He signaled for me to remove my earphones. I need to be more patient. Calm down, Viki. So, I remove and look at him.
“You know, the reason why we didn’t take you in is not because you sing badly. Of course you did well. Remember when we asked you if you have any other hobbies and you said you write?”
“Yea.”
“Yea, you write well. You have a great potential in writing. I know it sounds like ‘you deserve better’ wala crap that people say while breaking up but nah I’m not exaggerating. That day after the audition, I found your page on Instagram. The way you write is so innocent.” The nerve of him to praise me and insult me at the same time.
“ Are you calling my writings dumb?”
“No, no. Your writings have this touch of innocence. It’s like someone went through so much yet they still have hope. They still carry both their heartbreak and love with them. In equal bounds. It’s like they are waiting for someone to see them. Understand them. Look into their eyes and tell them that their dreams will not be just dreams.”
I blush and scream internally. I…I don’t know. How did he analyze me so well? He’s brilliant I already know that. But his EQ is this high? Am I reading into things too much or is he interested in me?”
“In short I would say, your writings, the way you express it feels like ‘First love’.”
“Are you flirting with me right now?”
“Maybe, but I’m speaking nothing but truth.”
I…don’t even know what to say. That completely caught me off guard. He then slowly looked into my eyes. Oh..is this what they mean by brown drowns you more than anything?
“What gives you the right to choose what is good for me?”
“Of course. I have no right to do that. But you did say you want to join the Literature and Books Club as well. And you write so well. Getting into both clubs and managing them with college stuff is pretty hard. It’s not just mine but everyone from the music club thinks you are a great writer. I know I kind of took it into my hands, but you know we need a lyricist for the band. Would you be willing to collaborate when we ask in the future?” He tilts his head so adorably after saying all that. I’m a feminist alright. He did mess up. He did, I’m gonna take my revenge, but god ahhhh he’s too cute.
“I need to think about it.”
“Of course take your time.”
“It’s late. I need to leave”, I say facing him.
“Hasta Manana, Senorita. This time when you see me don’t turn your head away. I might actually fall in love with you.”
I stare at him once not able to control my smile, I turn away walking to my room. Would I talk to him if I see him tomorrow? No. But would I wait for him to approach me? Yes.
😭💜